Thursday, July 29, 2010

taking love to greater heights

i received good news from a very good friend of mine today. news as good as this makes me want to blog all about it. a few months back, my friend made some very serious decisions about her life. when we make such serious and important decisions, usually it is because we want to achieve something more, something greater , something that will in the end, make us feel all happy inside.

i was happy for her, for she had found her soul's desire. so even if it meant that she would be 9000 miles away from me, even if it meant that i needed to take a flight of 20 hours just to be with her, i would still be happy for her...after all, i believe that she deserved such happiness.

today i gave her a call to find out when she's leaving.. guess what.. she's not.. i will leave it to her to tell you what her plans are, for im sure she will very soon. my very first question was..."
oh, but are you happy ? " she said, "actually.... yes"... i couldnt imagine how she could be happy. i would think that if you didnt get things your way, you would feel slightly disappointed...

i would..
and then she explained.... and i realized something...

my story is about what i learned from my lovely friend.

i learned that you can choose to be happy and that happiness does not solely come from following your own desires.

i learned that even if you truly badly want something, you can control your body mind and soul to also not want it anymore
i learned that with a big heart, you will love not only yourself but much more of others who matters most to you

i learned that life greatest opportunities come in different sizes, packages, colours...

i learned that it is not always about what we want.

we live in a big world, surrounded by people we love and love us back..

sometimes we have to not take what we get, but give what we can....

sometimes we need to be open to ideas and new inventions...

but this is all more easier said than done...

i only know its possible because of my friend ninie ahmad who believes that 'impossible is nothing'

and with a heart that loves ... she really can :)

she goes on and on most times telling the world about this heart of mine. the one that loves hard and much...

all i know is that birds of a feather do flock together and that it takes one to know one (.. and i mean this in a good way ;) ).

may the path you have chosen leads you to the happiness you seek, and the wonders of joy that shakes the earth under your feet.

much heart and love from me.

who do you want standing next to you when all your dreams come true
and that pain you feel... that's life
the confusion and fear
that's there to remind you that somewhere out there
there's something better and that something is worth fighting for
[one tree hill]

Do everything with so much love in your heart that you would never want to do it any other way.
-Yogi Desa

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Monday, July 26, 2010

i have dreamed

i was wondering when i would ever have time to write again. for months i have been filled with ideas yet when the moment came , i've been lost for words. so today i decided that it's going to be the day... the day when i will share once again.

i am not trying to gloat neither am i trying to boast, but my life has somewhat become an endless dream. i asked myself many times , how did it ever come to this. it all began with one little step... and that little step was to dream.

to become an actress was a dream i had when i was a child , i never knew that it would ever come true. i worked hard to believe that 'all the world's a stage '.. and while i was at it, i enjoyed every exit and entrance that i had made ..

and one day on my very own fairy like stage, came a charming prince who decided to spend his life time loving me ...

we now live happily with two beautiful princesses in our very own love kingdom.... just like all those fairytales i believed in, my own little fairytale came true to life...

i cannot even begin to explain how happy i have been, and even with much happiness in my life i am only human to understand that with every laughing smile, i too have crying tears... and i learn only at my best when there is a balance of such in life..

for almost two years me and my husband traveled back and forth [ not always at the same time ], 6000 miles apart or even 10000 miles at times, having internet and the blackberry keeping us connected at most times. not forgetting how much we relied on the beautiful moon up above to shine down our love to each other. absence did make the heart grow fonder. despite the distance, our love continu
ed to grow for each other as both of us in our deepest heart made wishes that soon we will be together

some of my friends wonder how i cope with a husband being so far away. id always come up with what i feel is romantic but actually sounds corny or cheesy to say to them... or sweet to most.

his heart is in mine and mine is in his, i carry him in my heart and he carries mine in him.

i kid you not. that is how i think, and that is how i feel for our love. some people will say im naive and i dont care about that. my heart has always made me believe that love and romance come together hand in hand.... maybe that's just what's true for me, and that has always made me very happy.. i have days where i fear of what would disappoint me, but hope takes me to high places, where dreamers often are seen...

my husband tells me, if you ever think of us and our love... just look up to the moon above...

now,you probably wonder what i'd do when the moon hides away...

i turn around and i see Luna.... our very own Luna :)

but that's just a small summary ....

in between our summer holidays we received a surprise...
but that's just another story to tell.

I have had dreams and I have had nightmares, but I have conquered my nightmares because of my dreams.- Jonas Salk