just once

i was recently experiencing many high moments in my life. everything was almost too good to be true. i was happy.. i still am somehow rather... yesterday, and today.. am having a break down. i made a mistake. i did something wrong and im feeling really bad. i am a perfectionist. and i try to make sure that everything goes on the way its supposed to be. but somehow rather i let one thing slip off. and i hate this feeling. what do i do, when saying sorry is not enough?

and so i bravely wake up to smell the beauty of this sunday morning. hoping that things will be okay. for i have been given a gift, a flower to cherish in my life and at this moment in my life i want to hold on to it.

i must slap this face of mine to have allowed such a thing to happen. i am now scared and i have no idea what to do. hope is all i have.. if there were no hopes.. yes the heart would die..