Wednesday, November 29, 2006

a seed turned flower

When will we realize that there is no good or bad. When will we truly understand that there is no right or wrong, when will our families accept the fact that we are who we are and we can be no other than who we already are.

How do we make them believe that we can go far. How do we deal with the insecurities that often pull us down. How do we look in the mirror and acknowledge all of who we are, have been and will be.

Why do they make it look so hard. Why does it seem that its quite easy actually. Why don’t we love as freely as we ought to be. Why would we rather build barriers and keep it going strong.

What if its not what it seems to be. What if its all in the mind. What if the heart is stronger. What if it can be done. What if its true, that if there is a will there is always a way.

And if there’s always a way.. lets choose to see it no other way.

some say love it is a river
that drowns the tender reed.
some say love it is a razor
that leaves your soul to bleed.

some say love it is a hunger
an endless, aching need
isay love it is a flower,
and you it’s only seed.

it’s the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance
it’s the dream afraid of waking
that never takes the chance

tt’s the one who won’t be taken,
who cannot seem to give
and the soul afraid of dying
that never learns to live.

and the night has been too lonely
and the road has been too long.
and you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong.

just remember in the winter
far beneath the bitter snow
lies the seed that with the sun’s love,
in the spring, becomes a rose.

the rose[bette midler]


Blogger *cosmic freak* said...

I like it.

(",) ... tiba tiba teringat "why do we hurt the ones, we love the most" ... hahahaha ... not that I really like that line, its just that with the so many "why"s and "what"s reminds me of the line.

but choosing the right perspective to complement those of your parents is also a question, a touchy one you can never find the right answer. Unless you parents try to see it your way.

my friend warned me, if my daughter ever complaint how I'm treating her with over protectiveness, my friend would come and give me a reality slap as I always complaint about how MY parents are treating me now. heh.

8:12 AM  
Blogger sensei said...

Talking from experience, we'll only understand our parents when we become parents ourselves.. ;)

8:48 AM  
Blogger the Razzler said...

Julia .. Such profound thoughts. We constantly moulds the benchmark of our life through our conscience & values. If only ...

1:07 PM  
Blogger juliana said...

i surprised my self when i tell my little nephews.. noooo that's not good.. this is better for you.. when i realize, what's better for me.. not neccesarily better for him :)
i feel that.. parents will be parents, brothers will be brothers and sisters will be sisters.. the youngest in the family will most often be a typical rebel.. like me :)
and in this world.. deep down in our hearts are our secrets, our desires, big or small.. its our sanity, commitment and responsibility that takes us where we are today..
sacrifices, compromises.. :) at the end of the day.. when we look back with no regret.. we wont wonder why so much .. everything will explain itself.. :) insya Allah...:)

3:03 PM  
Blogger *cosmic freak* said...

I'm the middle child.

once upon a time, I've lost it. I told off my eldest sister. I was 21 then.

"I have to look after a 26 yr old sister and a 24 yr old brother who behaves like 18 year olds and a 10 yr old sister and a 8 yr old brother who behaves like 5 yr olds!"

its hard being the rock to most people when they expect you to understand their choices but never tried to understand you.

yes. love is flower and me its only a seed.

love is a rafflesia and me is the seed in need of a rare kind of fertilizer. hahaha.

3:16 PM  
Blogger juliana said...

i have an elder sister.. no i dont have to look after her.. but i like to feel like im the older one : )

can i be your fertilizer? :)or perhaps.. one of them hehe..

3:19 PM  
Blogger *cosmic freak* said...

hahaha ... fertilize me with warm loving!!!

no ... don't ... being an overly affectionate person, I get close too easily. I'm spoilt by my friends. Don't burden yourself! hahah!

3:25 PM  
Blogger DareDevil8 said...

rafflesia is a smelly plant.wanna try using some other flower as analogy?

4:38 PM  
Blogger *cosmic freak* said...

but its rare ...

see ... superficial. heh.

its okay to smell bad in the outside. people who come close enough despite the smell, there's a better smell awaits them. the smell of pure beauty. that you don't get in nice smelling flowers that looks beautiful and which you can get easily everywhere.


4:46 PM  
Blogger DareDevil8 said...

OKOKOK bad smelling Rafflesia with Fertilizer on board!GREAT combination.

guess the comments here have gone beyond physical science.Lotta hidden newcomers u have gotta pick your brain n really read between the lines.hope u don't get piles along the way.

also there's lotta TRANS-BLOG comments as well.wanna to see the true picture u will have to cross border a lotta time.

5:11 PM  
Blogger sensei said...

Isn't life always about 'between the lines'.. Heck, who are we to set borders and boundaries anyway? ;)

6:34 PM  
Blogger DareDevil8 said...

yeap life is a GRAY area.absolutely BROWNIAN movements.

STOP IT.i just wanna MULTICOLORED candies!

10:48 AM  
Blogger juliana said...

will get u some canfies.. promise u stay happy?

11:19 AM  
Blogger DareDevil8 said...

HAHAHA i can't even predict my emotion the next second,hooooooow do i promise u??????i will be deem a liar if i do.
booohooooboooohooo LIFE IS SO TOUGH.please don't give me fake canfies,just plain simple candies.

OKOKOK will try my best.
i promise that my promise will be the absolute promise.that is a triple promises,i think i should be ok.

so hoor where is candy loh.please hoor i wan flesh out of referee-gelator hoor it col and hart loh vely clunchy mah.and many many color hoor until my ei hoor like lainbow vely vely happy

12:40 PM  
Blogger *cosmic freak* said...

erk .... also got candy talk here meh?

2:49 PM  
Blogger DareDevil8 said...

gonna reiterate myself

this is a TRANSBLOG candy express!

the ultimate choo choo train ride of a to get onboard?

what's the holiday package like u ask?
we assure u at the end of the ride u will
1]saturated with glee
2]fat as a barrel,with an absolute promise u will not be able to see your little brother below unless u use a mirror
4]if u are lucky ,the absolute thrill 'SUGAR COMA'

yeeehaaaa come for the ride!

3:53 PM  
Blogger *cosmic freak* said...

someone here got too many sugar la in their blood ... heh.

4:08 PM  
Blogger juliana said...

hahah cool.. always on for an adventure :)

4:18 PM  
Blogger *cosmic freak* said...

suddenly I'm picturing Polar Express ... why aaa.... hahaha ... or maybe that train to hogsworth (did I spell it correctly?) ala, the train harry potter board to the school of magic tuh.

4:35 PM  
Blogger DareDevil8 said...

ehmmmm..... i was not so ambitious.u are like going off tangentially.mine is more KTM punya with lotta delays,derailment,dark n dingy,multitude suicides attempts,dry with no background music ........

4:54 PM  
Blogger *cosmic freak* said...

but thats ... my main medium of transportation ... well, used to be la ... sort of .... I use it occasionally ... I never did want to have attempted suicide tho ... just occasional wanting to gigit the besi becos they often stop in the middle of nowhere (not la nowhere, usually in between salak selatan stop and seputeh stop, or seputeh stop and midvalley stop, or midvalley stop and kl sentral, right across the bangsar lrt station). ....

but its a test for your patience. heh.

malaysia just wanna test their citizen, thats all (yeap, look at the bright side of your life!)

5:06 PM  
Blogger DareDevil8 said...

HAHAHA gigit besi?with the caries on board patahlah gigi susu awak.[ops with all the talk of innocence,i have automatically classified u as toddler!]

poor soul,relying on public transportation.tsk tsk tsk but aint it good mingling rather than buzz off,my private space?

5:19 PM  
Blogger *cosmic freak* said...

me ... toddler ... do I look that innocent??? hehehe ...

I sometime rely on public transportation for the sake of practicality.

and I like to see and observe people.

cuma .... yes, I can actually gigit the railing when I'm tensed, then again ..

eeueuuuuuuwwwwww ... yucks! imagine how many people with dirty hands have touched it!

6:00 PM  
Blogger DareDevil8 said...

imagine how many people with dirty hands right after rubbing their PRIVATE PARTS have touch it!


6:11 PM  
Blogger *cosmic freak* said...

owh ok. I think both of us are potentially banned by juliana if we carry on this comment-conversation. heh.

6:37 PM  

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