wish i was this.. and wish i had that... and this is all i have and perhaps all that i need

my thoughts are a bit jumbled up. and therefore im not sure what this is going to be a bout. not yet. responsibility. mm that's a big word. procrastination. another big word. i remember my younger days in school "remember girl.. it is your responsibility to finish your homework before you come to class" obviously i lost true meaning of it.. as i remember being sickly scared that i had totally forgotten to do it. and that was because.. i procrastinated. "takpelah.. kejap lagi baby buat la mommy" and my kejap lagi was nowhere to be seen as i played around day dreaming of what my life would be like singing que sera sera what will be will be. 2 weeks later came the lesson on procrastination.. and the famous procrastination is the thief of time.

and the reason for this is beause i simply have been procrastinating my entries.. oh well :) better late than never.

sunday morning was cheery.. wait.. its almost friday. oh well... its nice to reminisce on days u felt so good. where the sun was shining, birds chirping, and it was sunday morning. with a wake up call from the yoga instructor, i was set for yoga. yes it felt like a yoga day. and here you'll see yogi me trying to be. my 2nd class, and i was prepared, to be in painand to know that 3 days later i'll still be in pain. and on days like this.. i wish... i was like the yoga instructor. [check out her page and u'll know what i mean ]

i've learned that we cant all be what we want to be. well not all at one time at least. but we can definitely work towards it.

so.. yeah i get to tell stories on tv.. . i go on set, at a location, ready to shoot and have a bumble jumble load of fun...like yoga, less pain .. and just like this :)

and so i've learned, that i have so many wants, and so many needs [notice the order of importance]. and at times i wonder.. what if the one thing i wanted most, or needed most, is not the one, i want or the one i need. that caught me thinking for a while. and that has left me in a confused state of mind.

so i shall not stop and i shall not surrender. not just yet. even if it means that i've got to yogi my way through it. i shall not falter.

some dreams live on in time forever
those dreams, you want with all your heart
and Ill do whatever it takes
follow through with the promise I made
put it all on the line
what I hoped for at last would be mine

reach - gloria estafan