Tuesday, October 17, 2006


be like the flowing river
silent in the night
be not afraid of the dark
if there are stars in the sky, reflect them back
if there are clouds in the sky
remember, clouds, like the river, are water
so gladly reflect them too
in your own tranquil depths

manuel bandeira

as usual i was rushing through my lines. i tend to speed through either my dialogues, or what ever host links that i have to do. and yes i realize i make no sense or even no connection what so ever when that happens. but i do it anyway unconsciously but consciously that im doing it like 5 secs after. and whenever ping says.. remember to pause for a while.. i just dont seem to really listen.. but until he said.. remember to pause for a bit.. you're very afraid of pauses.. dont be afraid, it got me thinking.

although he meant it literally reagarding my lines, i as usual had taken it as more than just feedback. its true u know.. im the kind that does everything fast paced. i talk fast, i breathe fast, i drive fast when i can , as much as my lil red mini car (no.. not THE MINI COOPER) can take, i eat quite fast too and in between all of that, i do what ever i can every second, every minute, every hour till i cant take more and just either fall asleep or fall in space. more of the latter of course.

and yes.. i can be afraid of pauses. empty space in time.

so when i had shed some tears again during the dead body pose in class today. i knew why. no, im not sad, neither am i unhappy. its only because that's the only time i ever get to really, totally relax, mind body and soul, a time where i can truly let go and surrender, to pause and breathe. 3 minutes of that just makes my day. its true you know.. not like some yoga crap u read on those ads... but of course.. u need to have a good instructor, and the one i have, is the best that one can have.

so im a bit weird.. and i cry.. sometimes :)

if I just breathe
let it fill the space between
i'll know everything is alright
every little piece of me
you'll see
everything is alright
if I just breathe

breathe - michelle branch


Blogger The Yoga Instructor said...

My lovely Julie,

Now I'm the one who's shedding tears. The last 3 minutes spent reading what nice things you wrote about your yoga instructor, I can almost say, validates my 4 years of teaching altogether.

Maybe it's not me, Julie. Perhaps the magic lies in yoga itself and how one tries and works toward finding it. It becomes even more magical, when such wonderful a person like you discovers it.

It is always OK to cry, my lovely. Most people unleash their negative energy through their anger, some people release their vitality through their laughter.

IMHO in rare cases, extraordinary people with pure good hearts channel their positive vibes through their endless smiles and quiet cries. You know you are extraordinary :).

12:27 AM  
Anonymous the Razzler said...

Crying always brings out the compassion & reminder that I am ONLY human.

Be it a touching scene in `Sepet', a poor lonely old soul left to suffer by his/her children in destitute.

Crying is a good reminder that we have a heart.

11:15 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

It's what you don't say that speaks the loudest, it's what you don't do that accomplishes the most.

J.T. Edwards

2:53 PM  
Anonymous the Razzler said...

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri to you & your family.

Drive safely !! (haha ... like safety campaign pulak)

5:34 PM  
Blogger spanker said...

I love all your previous post on love. I love all of it. It's... refreshing. It doesn't make me stop thinking. I think I have mental masturbation too.


12:56 PM  
Blogger MistakenIdentity said...

Selamat hari raya aidilfitri

8:34 PM  
Blogger juliana said...

selamat hari raya aidilfitri everyone!! :) maaf zahir dan batin..

11:39 AM  
Blogger DrFrappucino said...

Googled your name after seen gubra on astro. So u blog huh :)A touch on poetry, melancholy, life and love. Reminds me what J.B. Jovi once said "Like a poet needs the pain". Xclnt.

11:51 PM  
Blogger kekure said...

julie..epi raya!hawau u bebeh?

9:39 PM  
Blogger juliana said...

guyss.. i would have to apologize for the lack of updates and entries... but will be back in action soon.. with more and more love :)

kekure darling.. im okay.. thankss.. alhamdulillah.. hows ur raya??

dr frapp.. thanks for dropping by!! :) i like what u said, what jb jovi said.. pain.. id have to write about that.. though my dad seems to think i have a craving for pain..

spanker.. its nice feeling that u love what i write.. thank you.. i wont stop writing.. and hopefully i'll come up with something soon.. im missing my romantic ness :)

razzler.. the heart.. so special.. :)

jt .. :)

12:45 AM  
Blogger Tenno Miyake said...

hi julie.. selamat hari raya too. thanx for the sms. have u got mine?

7:33 AM  
Blogger Eka said...

selamat hari raya..ehhh..maybe late..but it still raya.. :)

5:58 PM  
Anonymous Rafeeqa said...

hello there.
u're so talented. keep it up ait? take k babe.=)

4:43 PM  
Anonymous comel said...

i thought i'm the only one who live life fast - talk, walk, drive, breathe etc. looks like i'm normal after all.

11:46 AM  
Blogger Dr.M said...

so you're the one !!!hahaha
you blog tu huh.. kewl.. keep up the good acting. Will be looking forward to further pictures.

11:18 AM  
Blogger *cosmic freak* said...

hurm ... no updates ... hurm ... too bad ... just when I thought I wanna come here more often ...

12:23 PM  
Blogger juliana said...

i'll be back :)

1:47 PM  
Blogger .:rainbeau:. said...

faster come back then:*

12:05 AM  

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