Wednesday, December 13, 2006

the arrow struck my heart that bleeds of love

though i like to believe that i breathe, eat, live love everyday, its been awhile that i spoke of it. yes i would have to agree that i inject it into everything that happens in my life, but, the love , the *wikipedia definition of love, is something that i have put to aside just for a little while. and the more conscious i am of putting it aside, the more it comes staring in the face. reminding me , showing me signs that it has to exist. that it has to happen, and its what i sometimes miss.

everywhere i go, i see love. in the book store, at the coffee shop, near the bus stop or even as they're in the car. and its so beautiful. it comes in many different packages. little things i see them do gives a nice warm feeling in my heart. that nice little look he gives her. that gentle touch on the nose. as she pulls him close to her and gives him a kiss on the cheek and a giggle after the i love you. sometimes its just the silence between two people. the comfort of being with the other. my friend and her husband.. i'll call u back... we're at the play ground. that's just so cute. it comes in all shapes and sizes and all different age groups. even the lady at the rojak stall in penang, who spoke so highly of her husband and his rojak sauce and how she wanted me to take his picture instead of hers coz apparently she thinks he looks better than her. and though i told her how i thought she was pretty and very sweet.. she said no. and then i said.. what if i take a picture of you and your husband. she smiled and happily said okay :) and as u can see.. she's peeking so cutely from behind him. it showed me how much she respected him and just her holding on to him was simply what i think is very loving and romantic i mistook her for being in the late thirties when later she told me she was at least 10 years older. must be the love shining in her heart that shines so brightly you can see it in her eyes..

but its the kind of love that i have no words for. its the kind of love that i wont be able to describe.. its the kind of love that is not just a fairytale, it is their fairytale, and one day it will be a fairytale in my little heart.. a fairytale that will come true because i want it to..

*Love is a basic dimension of human experience that is variously conveyed as a sense of tender affection, an intense attraction, the foundation of intimacy and good interpersonal chemistry, willing self-sacrifice on behalf of another, and as an ineffable sense of affinity or connection to nature, other living beings, or even that which is unseen. It manifests itself in feelings, emotion, behavior, thoughts, perception and attitude. It influences, underlies and defines major patterns in interpersonal relationships and self-identification.

14 Comments:

Blogger Amir EtCetera said...

I used to believe that there's a certain definition about Love. Then I realise.. There's no real definition to that word. It's up to each individuals to define the meaning of love and how to react to it.

And if you find another person who shares the same definition as you are.. Now, that just completes the whole cycle..

:)

2:56 AM  
Blogger sensei said...

But amir, what if the person that shares the same definition already has his/her own partner? Would it still be OK to share the feeling? :)

Reminds me of that Alanis Morissette song "It's meeting the man of my dreams.. And then meeting his beautiful wife"

8:55 AM  
Anonymous Isaac said...

Love? It can be a wonderful thing in everyone's life and sometimes it hurts too. the love between human - Both of the male and female should have feel for each other and only then both of them will feel the happiness. love is actually a very complicated subject. nothing can explain love because it is unexplainable lol. i think the meaning of love is different in every human's mind. like people say, it's up to oneself to define it as what.. i think you're very positive towards love, at least you still have hope with it...... :)

9:49 AM  
Blogger *cosmic freak* said...

love.

one night, in the car, it was cold, being alone at the backseat doesn't help.

slowly, I reached out for the person sitting at the co-pilot seat in front. my fingers crawled from the narrow doorside, reaching for the fingers. the person felt my fingers searching for a receiver and accepted it, gripping it firmly and shared the warmth that I needed. it stayed there until one of us got out of the car as the driver sent us home.

when I got back and called the person, I was told,

"you know, when your fingers crept from behind and hold my hand. that was sweet. I really like that."

I replied.

"that was my happy place. that was my happy moment".

is that love?

then I really miss that.

love comes in the smallest insignificant thing that only two hearts can understand. even in silence. to reach for warmth. the warmth of love. to heat up two hearts that were opened for it.

10:12 AM  
Blogger *cosmic freak* said...

love will come your way.

when you set no boundaries.

then you'll see, with your small heart, of the fairytale you tell yourself before you go to sleep, is actually closer that you'd thought it be.

you look up and stared to far. searched too high and probably looked too low.

when it was there waiting by your side for as long as it can remember.

10:15 AM  
Blogger the Razzler said...

"Love is a basic dimension of human experience that is variously conveyed as a sense of tender affection, an intense attraction, the foundation of intimacy and good interpersonal chemistry, willing self-sacrifice on behalf of another, and as an ineffable sense of affinity or connection to nature, other living beings, or even that which is unseen. It manifests itself in feelings, emotion, behavior, thoughts, perception and attitude. It influences, underlies and defines major patterns in interpersonal relationships and self-identification."

Wow .. so well defined.

Love ... the only ingredient that can binds the world regardless of race or religion !!

Hope we don't need to await a disaster to realize that we're only human.

5:03 PM  
Blogger juliana said...

love is.. like abby's multicoloured candies :) different colours.. but in the end.. the taste.. pretty much the same :) i vote for skittles still :) sweet and sour :), okay it can taste like dark bittersweet chocolate at times :)

1:06 PM  
Blogger *cosmic freak* said...

yes, abby's multicoloured candies altho she like em greenie ones.

bittersweet chocolate is still chocolate. leading to guilty pleasures. heh.

7:38 PM  
Blogger *cosmic freak* said...

yes, abby's multicoloured candies altho she like em greenie ones.

bittersweet chocolate is still chocolate. leading to guilty pleasures. heh.

7:41 PM  
Blogger *cosmic freak* said...

yes, abby's multicoloured candies altho she like em greenie ones.

bittersweet chocolate is still chocolate. leading to guilty pleasures. heh.

7:44 PM  
Blogger *cosmic freak* said...

sorry juliana, tertekan plak berbanyak kali. bloody blogger (sajer carik scapegoat, heh)

8:28 PM  
Blogger Amir EtCetera said...

Sensei : Well, if that's so.. then life IS very IRONIC.. right? Just like the song. :)

11:24 PM  
Blogger e d w a n' said...

love is an ironic state of simultaneous bliss and aching. u know? when u love so much it hurts in a place no physicality can touch; yet ur heart also aches. but u know u wudn't have it any other way. so love is a paradox; pain or joy, it goes both ways. but at the end of things, it defines everything we are.

12:53 AM  
Blogger me,myself n all around da world said...

for me love is so abstract but we know it is exist, suddenly it just come to our heart wi'out notice...

"Ruh itu seumpama tentera yang sentiasa awas-mengawasi. Yang saling bersesuaian di antaranya menjadi jinak, manakala yang saling bertentangan pula akan berselisih" -marhum Hadis

p/s: cintai manusia kerana itulah dirinya, dan jgn merubahnya menjadi gambaran yang kamu inginkan. Jika tidak, kamu hanya mencintai pantulan diri sendiri yang kamu temukan di dalam dirinya.~

11:31 AM  

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